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poetry by olivia testa - part II

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Olivia is a brave little toaster. A student living in Austin, Olivia loves bugs and bones and dry glue on her hands. She is a perpetuator of Wonder, a dying art. Her efforts have opened doors to words, and writing about what she knows. And what she knows is not a lot, but just enough. She altogether loves and lacks in written poetry, prose, and outward nonsense that she hopes someone will inwardly connect with. Olivia believes that laughing at yourself is never not appropriate. That some rules are bogus, and just shouldn’t be followed. That karaoke is really only fun for the person singing, but that dancing is fun for everyone. Olivia wants everyone to know that sometimes she doesn't brush her teeth, and she “thinks that is gross”. And that she doesn't believe in magic, but that she believes in calling people magic. In her lifetime, she has had the pleasure of meeting, reading, and listening to magic women who make being a female, magnetic, fun, and beautiful. Her lifetime has been not a lot, but just enough. Olivia is twenty-two. One day, she hopes to write a book, to use “tout suite” in a sentence, and to make people feel welcome.

these poems are the second in a 4 week series we will be sharing on the blog.

 

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Eyes rest, in Grief

Eyes wake, in Grief

Tears linger, before the Moon

Tears burn, before the Sun

There is a spell when they are jaded;

simply spilling over a lifeless corpse

And there is a moment when they blister,

Summoning each demon by name.

Rage, Wretch, Pain, Torment

What would they sanctify such conjurers?

Floodwaters,

devastating all life under the flesh,

every creature

that all perish

The Crimson Stain

 

 

Cup understanding in palms,

 

a seedling of sweet accolade

A dewy blameless hum, that,

blind eyes, may still feel for

Mind more than every collective beat

For folly, and greeting, and ripe chests of passion

A thing with feathers

 

The whip of Apathy against backbone

 

Licking flesh with bottomless cuts

Splitting exposed belly, so that no breath escape

Rapping into bones, as you roll over;

Warping, the very figure of man,

till he is none but the vessel that brought him.

 

The sick disillusion,

 

a dwelling

A clouded, peculiar numb

of nothing the same, and yet nothing disfigured.

The disorienting pattern and dance,

that led soles astray.

To this very Universe;

this spoiled Reality.

The dazed film,

and the unpolished gravity.

 

The Unaccompanied

 

The removing truth,

there be but one life,

one perspective,

one heart and mind.

That not a click of cogs is alike,

not a heart swells the same

No impassioned cut, shared

 

To wish to sleep,
and divorce morning

 

A stricken,

shameful roost

Fragile, too delicate, fainthearted to go beyond

A tired, weary, burdened soul

Bless the wild wind,

In space, in full, in abundance.

 

The heat of anger, like coals under foot

 

Short, prickling rage

bleeds from the tethers

Fresh, fledging thistles,

no more painful than the tip of the blade

resting in that breast.

And like a flame,

burnt alive

whole

entirely

Blackened remains,

no more the same,

all the more onerous.

It is My own.

 

 

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There was a melancholiness about her

It had always been.
Yet, never more plain, then now.
It hung from her shoulders,

and dripped down her spine.

It sank behind her lids

And tucked beneath her ribs.
She had drank the wine,

She had come alive.
Never more the same,

never more the less.
She breathed each breath,

Loved her bones dry.


yes, There is a dead among the living,
blooming in spring

withering in winter
They have no home.
longing, a final moonlit dance
what is little left,

be still

 

And she was still.

 

 

Hands pressed against porcelain.
Pray to the God that reigns
that rains
Can’t you feel?
Can’t you feel it all?
Pray you,
anoint me
Baptism

I rain
rain melds with rain
spilling over,
I’m spilling over
it just spills
it just spills
from red eyes, consecrated
my tears, my portion
Communion

Mangled
what are you
You’re not human
You’re barely human
you are bare,
bones,
stripped,
carnal,
flesh
Confession

carry my Body
kiss me goodbye
lay me down in a Grave
let me rest, let me lie
O, heart, stop beating
this be
a Death affair

 

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